Less frequent, but still there

I came across some verses that explained my thoughts exactly the few months after my dad's death. I can't believe it's been 5 months. It still seems like yesterday. Do I still feel the way that these verses describe? Yes but less frequently

As a cloud vanishes and is gone, so one who goes down to the grave does not return.
He will never come to his house again; his place will know him no more.
Therefore I will not keep silent; I will speak out in the anguish of my soul.
Am I the sea, or the monster of the deep, that you put me under guard?
When I think my bed will comfort me and my couch will ease my complaint,
Even then you frighten me with dreams and terrify me with visions
So that I prefer strangling and death rather than this body of mine
I despise my life; I would not live forever. Leave me alone; my days have no meaning.
What is mankind that you make so much of them, that you give them so much attention.
That you examine them every morning and test them every moment?
Will you never look away from me, or let me alone even for an instant?
Job 7:9-19